Fatigue

Not today, I can't write.
A giant's feet have stepped on mine
and needles prick the pillow of flesh
on my shoulders, each time I move my head.
And my head feels like it would drop off anytime
from drunkenness of exhaustion.
And my brain just wants to flip
around the net of the web.
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12 October 2005

Millionaire Wannabe

At work on Saturday, supposed to be an off day,
got pissed off by an assistant, a temp
who came in two hours late and so
could not hand up her work on time.
(And she was the one getting paid for the day.)
Her excuse: there was no one to take her to work,
and she didn't know how to take buses,
had never taken buses before
and didn't like taking buses at all.
Her words pricked my brain like a million needles
and I heard myself told her
next time not to tell me that she could only top up
her mobile phone credit on payday.
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8 October 2005

Your New House

Today, we went to look at designs
to build a new house for your anniversary.
There has to be your favourite colour -
maroon, a shade like red;
and granite, which is more lasting than terrazzo.
There would be a picture of you,
and Mother Mary and Jesus, of course,
and two praying angels of stone
by the sides to guard your door.
It has to be perfect as we would visit often
and because this is where you last
touched this world.
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8 October 2005
12 August 2006

To Understand

Don't tell me a holy man never gets rob
or things inside his house ever gets lost.
Don't tell me a rich man's drain never clogs
or filth never sticks to its sides.
Does he wait until he sees a gun at his face
before he installs an alarm in the house?
Does he wait until the plumbing overworks
and the pipes bursts
before he sets them straight?
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6 October 2005
(revised 29 July 2006)

After Life

It had been a long time
since I could run my errants
or fetch dad to the supermarket
as I did today.
Before you left for better days
I had given you all of my life,
which I have no regret,
if I could just hug you again.

And today you made me understood,
you had set us both free
and that life should not be frightening
after all.
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4 October 2005
(revised 2 August 2006)

Colours

Some folks say red looks like magenta.
Some folks mix colors like jugglers.
Some crave cyan like the blues.
Some still doubt purple is indigo.
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3 October 2005
(revised 29 July 2006)

One Family

We sat at the round table,
five minus one.
Your last moments
were on my mind the whole day.
At supper, you released me
and allowed me to feel
we were still one family.
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2 October 2005
(revised 20 July 2006)

Little Feet

On our way to dinner,
my sister asked me which turn to make.
I remembered the time mum was with us
and her chuckle, almost a sneer but not at me.
"You're asking her?"
She knew I could only lead them with little feet
but these little feet never failed them or me.
Her chuckle echoed in the car
in everyone's mind again that night.
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1 October 2005
(revised 20 July 2006)